meow meow meow...
felt rather xian at home...

early in the morning, at 6+am my dad came back from America... no wonder my mum was bz bustling around... while me and my sis were still in our cosy bed...pig had slept on the floor .. wonder why?? i guess he fell off the bed (as usu)!

felt sad and angry and xian...


SOMEWHERE I BELONG

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

yoyoyo!!! haha or should i make it a meow??? haha

last nite...
clumsy me..
fancy having my fingers ironed while i was watching shrek...
i was learning how to iron clothes when my sis told me to watch a funny part... i looked up and then laughed and then ironed my fingers...how nice...

today ah... i lazy to blog leh...
okay lar, went to tp central with my sis and mum to eat branch.. coz we woke up abt 11+ haha...
then we shopped the whole tp central... then i went to drama...

when i reached there, juz before climbing up the stairs, i saw jun ying, woon jeck and ying xi...
then dunno y we went to ntuc to buy stuff, so i had to walk all the way back...nvm..
then juz nice each person carried a plastic bag back...

at drama we had to sing as usu... ahh.. then we oso had some'entertainment'.. we saw our juniors act sumting tat we din understand... sighz too bad..

we had quite lots of fun...

went back and had a time oh my life...(being sacarstic)
felt a little xian haha..

meow meow meow...
sighz.. today actually oni need to go to sch at 11am to collect report book one.. but then my senior called to bring sumting for her, and i oso had to bring sumting for nurul uc... so they called at 9+ then i came to sch abt 9+ close to 10..
so early ... i could have slept in haha.. me is naturally a later waker...

then i ate brakfast in sch with nurul. we tok until 10+ close to 11am then we went to my class to collect report bk...
saw sum of my frens there too... in the end i fair alright to me lar but a little disappointed lor... muz work harder next time...
then i very quiet in class meh??? i thought i always tok one leh... y the remarks say i quiet?!!

nvm, anyway went back home then eat and slept... then pig and me had to settle our own dinner...
still had a little prob with my braces ...pain but still can eat... if cannot then i juz swallow the whole big thing( which i usu do...)

hahaha... suddenly pig so nice...today he volunteered to cook all by himself...i guess he sense that i was rather unhappy today...
now i know so mean ppl can oso be nice...

yoyoyo!!!!!
haha so fun today.. except i felt abit sick today... (giddy... dunno y , seldom have one leh...)

me,shirley,abigail,hui ting, soon li, shi hui, wan xuan, siow kee, xiao xiang and hui qi went to orchard...

abigail, hui ting and soon li went to watch 'shrek 2' while the rest of us went to watch 'troy'...

troy is a nice thrilling show, unfortunately ...the ending was rather terrible when so many ppl had to die and the lovers couldn't be together... it was the same as 'helen of troy'... watched the dvd u c... i actually cried during the movie when they started fighting... it was so bloody and gory...
aiya dunno lar juz so sad that i cried.. wan xuan oso cried...

then we oso went to take neoprints.. whao so fun heehee..
unfortunately b4 tat, when i juz stepped out of the cinema, i felt giddy.. and they thought i was sad or angry... i wasn't juz felt giddy and weak oni... dunno how cum suddenly lyk dat one leh.. mabbe coz i cried during the movie.. k lar i was sad for the movie..mabe abit to 'into' the movie liao...

then hui ting bought a cup of coffee from 'the coffee bean'. she said it was so bitter and she added 4 tubes of sugar!!!!! yet she still said it was bitter and threw the whole thing away...

then we saw jana and the rest...

then guess who else we saw... beta not say it here... went almost everywhere and met them almost everywhere... how unlucky... dunno if they saw us...

haha in all we had a fun time and i went back home happily with the neoprints...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! today cross country race was fun but also shocking...
there were a few obstacles which were a little 'mean'...

there was one where we had to make salad with the fruits and vegetables provided without any equipment... so we used our hands to peel the watermelon skin.. actually, it was more like we pulling out the flesh out the watermelon...

then we have to peel the celery (i think it is celery lar) and lettuce...
then we made a smiley face out of it... we didn't know we were supposed to eat it then the people tending the game poured oil and vinegar to the 'salad'... then we had to eat them...

we really squashed everything in our mouths lor...
sumore i had teeth pain coz if the tightening of the braces...

then we had to wet tissue paper and throw it at a cardboard cow...
those wet tissue paper that fell on the grass, we had to pick them up...

then we had football but this time it is using a rugby ball....
so fun!!!!! but then my fren go and kick me instead of the ball, she go and kick me...
then stupid shirley keep complaining i kick her haiz....
haha too bad for her...
i also like the netball freesbie so fun!!!
aiya on the whole it was rather fun lar...

ouch ouch ouch!!!!! i left sch earlier todae to meet my mum at outram mrt station... together, we went to national dental centre... i had to there to tighten my braces..

well.. b4 that i had to go an x-ray!!! i don't really like x-rays coz it always sound so scary lor...but the process was less than 5 minutes lor..so fast

then i had to go back to tighten my braces which i was rather reluctant to coz i know it would be pain as i very long nv go liao coz of my buzy schedule...
true lor... so pain!!!!! i couldn't really eat my dinner either...
guess i would have to bear with the pain for abt a week... (cries)

oh meow meow...am i really that famous for meowing too much???
well maybe...heeeheee
as usu i brought my reluctant body to sch... coz i was so so so sleepy...
nvm abt that but the prob is that todae got banner painting for the dunno wad thing ... our class was split into 2 grps and mine was xplosives...so we had to help to paint banner actually it was rather fun lar..
but b4 that we had to attend to this very long and boring lifeskills thinging... we had to skip our watching movie time lor while other classes were happily watching 'pay it forward' we had to have this thing...!!!!!
then we had little recess time becoz of the lifeskills thing and summore since oni 3 stores were open in the canteen oni, then the food was sold out fast ... pretty soon were left with no food for recess.. i was so hungry lor... :(

we were left in class to do nothing much actually but to plan for the dunno wad thing...

after sch...
i accompanied my mum to the sembawang library to borrow some books... and my mum bought my lots of food to eat!! yah! haha
i sound more like a greedy pig rite???
next we went to my uncle's house which was kinda near...i watched tv there haha...
my younger cousin made a havoc out of the place and it was very messy there... alyosius was there too but he encouraged derick to mess up the place...!!!!!!!
wish i could strangle him.. coz i was the one who wemt round packing the house lor

when i was in the train going back, i met sarah and chere (ex-classmates..) we toked ,so fun
haha byebye...

gd day .. u c i so polite...
hahahahahahahaha
juz scolded soon li for being so mad... send me a mail full of the words :'5566 rakwz!'....
haha so boh liao rite? that's wad she said anyway ...

a couple of mad things happened today...

1)when i came back home feeling a little low, guess wad happened??
saw my cousin, derick, chasing Jay, our dog, around the house...
asked him what happened, said the he gave some chilli to jay and jay swallowed it and started being mad.. (probably dying of spiciness...)

2)my sis decided to make some popcorns... instead of poping them into the pan, her curiousity made her try the microwave oven...
the next moment i know... some of the popcorns popped to the strip heater and caught fire... in a second, the whole oven was on fire!!!!!!
ah help!!! i filled a cup of water and threw it to the fire and done! fire gone ,so are the popcorns... chao tar(burnt) liao...
luckily the microwave oven is still in gd condition i guess...
oh i'll be dead meat.
well pig juz stood there laughing!!!!!
but when the fire was still burning, all he did was to shout 'fire!'
thanks man , didn't need u to shout to let us know there is fire u noe... we're not stupid.hahahaa

in conclusion ... madness is really dominating...so beware...

got miss me?? hehehee jkjk...
yawnz.. had to wake up early in the morning... went to the airport to see my dad off...see lar..he juz came back from Spain yesterday then today have fly off to USA liao...
guess mum would miss him alot???
QN :where do u think my sis was???
ANS: at home sleeping then will wake up at 9am to watch cartoons till abt in the afternoon (everytime oso see her so free one... dunno where she got the time to do her work...)
by the way she doesn't seem to act like a jc2 student suppose to act like ...didn't mean she is mad yea but...puzzling rite???

anyway, my mum and i wondered around the airport and ate breakfast there...when it was abt time to go home i refused to coz i didn't feel like going back--- dunno why ,dont ask me...
so i debated with my mum of where to go... then we took bus no. 36 to orchard and shopped there and ate our lunch.
next we took a bus (cnt rmb what no.) tomy drama unfortunately we got a little lost... (heehee sense of direction not say very gd lar...)

nvm .. we found our way eventually... yah!

at drama...
had to learn how to sing this song .... at first it was ok then we got a bit stuck in figuring the tune then okay done!
haha smart rite??? hheehee
hmm.. wondering wads going on with the prank call business? SOME ppl at drama like prank calling and even called me mad ah....
haha fun anyway..mad ppl ...mugagagagagagaga
anyway i wore a yellow shirt which ernest said was rather so call outstanding??? was it??? maybe a little too bright??? not sure but madness is dominating me!!!!! mugagagagagaga

madness..
woke up early in the morning abt 5 plus yawnz.. suppose to meet joan at 6 then go to mrt station together but we met poovensh on our way so we walked together..
oh my... going to be late ah.. actually i think i was heehee...
sorry
at my duty , we were actually rather early so we aited for the whole sch to cum by our way... when they came it was so confusing...
at first a little came then later alot millions... my mind probably went blank... saw my frens at the walkathon too...
then stupid beagle go and push me... hey shud have done the same haha...
so mean...
haaahaaaa
then we walked on with the crowd after they passed us...
on the way was actually tiring..
the walk was actually from chijmes to our sch in thomson abt 8km if i am not wrong...
met the other first aiders on the way fun but tiring though..
ahhh when we were finally back at sch everyone was so tired ...some bought drinks and blahblah..
we had prize giving in the rain! nice u noe.. not being sarcastic but ya although i dun like rainy days but i like being in the rain... esp playing in the rain... oh yes i forgot to mention that my bag broke from a big hole and a small hole to an EXTREMELY BIG HOLE...
so i had to carry it infront of me making sure that nothin dropps out. look like pregnant though hahaha
after that the whole bunch of us beat the rain and walked to tp central-- me,ducky, cat, dummy, chromosomes and moomoo.
then we split.. only me ducky and cat went to eat lunch there..
we were laughin our way through for no reason ...
mad...but fun...
then i went back only to have to go and buy lunch with my sis for mum and sis...
after eating another lunch at home i went to sleep until abt 6 plus... we decided not to go to the airport.. instead we waited for dad to come home... by the time i woke up my dad was back from spain... brought back alot of chocolate as usu...
then we went to eat dinner...
unfortunately my dad has to fly off to usa tmr for another week ...cnt see him off ...got church in the morning... sighz...

me again!!!...
yup whao lucky me didn't cry today hahajuz a little sad and mad and happy at the same time... crazy rite??? dunno how cum i can feel this way all at once but ya i do..
well woke and didn feel like going to sch AS USUAL! but i did though... forcing myself though the dark dark house ...a little scay too!

okay in sch ... coughin all the way...mad why muz i be sick since sun???today is fri liao lor!!! got a little flu and cough.. which leads to block nose and ears...cnt hear very properly too u noe...
no wonder my sis muz shout in my ears when she toks to me.

yup now we checked our eng papers first i think...cnt really rmb memory rather bad...
happy my eng improved! and i so happy my compo got 24/30!!! haha hope it will pull my exam marks high u noe..

well we din get our home econs paper back so the teacher's sick ..so sad but i dun wanna noe abt it anyway cuz i know i done badly in that one.. dunno alot.. my home econs sux. i hate the sewing as i u noe as usual very clumsy one mah.. needle everytime poke me one... so pain ...

then chinese as usu.. sighz.. the worst sub as usu.. got c5 or isit c6?? forgot ... need to plus 3/4 mark to get a b4 so sad...
maybe i shud drop higher chinese..shud i??my chinese has always been very lan4 one...

history paper was so happy new!! got a1 hahhahhaaa... love history paper but i rmb the acrid period of studying it and remembering all that facts... then during the exam itself my hand was so tired writing... lit too so much to write lor...

that was all we checked i shud say..
after sch.. i ate lunch with joan yupyup...drank two cups of bundung.. addicted to it liao.. after beagle introduced it to me .. makes me rmb of the so addicted by simple plan haha..

when to novena to eat dinner with mum.. she is always complaining bored at home so i became a kind soul and accompanied here shopping too ..
came back feeling sick as usu.. wonder when i'll recover..
horrors of horror is that ma'am ruo yun called me telling me that i would have to meet at ghoby gaut mrt at 6.40am tmr for first aid duty for the ij walkathon..
very early u noe...

meow meow...
heyhey.. today while walking to sch with my sis i saw an orange coloured cat which was limping on three legs... the front paw was injured... so poor thing.. :(
sighz.. still rmb got another time i saw a big fat white cat with one of its eyes blinded so bloody and a little gory...
no wonder nite time esp can always hear angry cats screaming... probably fightin..

aiya.. but...
now i find that life is always full of wonderings leh..
how come it is sometimes easier to tell the inhuman computer what u feel???
the life still makes me confused and bewildered...
i can't unravel the enigma... can't we just revel in life???
so complicating... makes me remember of the song :"complicated" by Avril. anyway i'm listening to it now...
can't life be easier and simple??? hm...makes me think of a boy band : simple plan..
haha.. and sumore no one's perfect rite? so why do people keep admiring what others have yet dun appreciate what they have and excel in it?? including me too... anyway this makes me think of the song : perfect by simple plan.

why do i keep linking all these to songs and blahblah am i mad..
ok maybe not yah not in a mood to say much though..
just feel so confused anyway.. i might cry tmr... coz tmr is checking our exam papers time!!!!! hope i pass anyway...wish my marks stay with me! gtg mum complaining wanna go out eat liao byebye!

today... rejoice rejoice and again i say rejoice! exams are over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so happy stess freeeeeeeee....!
after exam, me , shirley and abigail went to central..
sighz.. anyhow walk lah took so long to decide where to go and eat too! whao can say my legs are super duper tired lor... aighz.. i think i got laugh abit too loud in the library...haha but nvm lar muz enjoy heehehe

i wonder y when i am free , i'm super free but when i am bz, i am extremely buzy lor...
now can slp all i wan liao and if i am not wrong, the say mon no need to go sch ...free....
but i very lazy to type leh...

and wad i wana complain is that shirley ah.. she call her mother take so long one.. go dunno abt the whole toa payoh cantral try calling also cannot... make us walk for sooooooooo long...
beagle ah oso very gd.. muz go cd rama and other cd shop go get the cd.. oso another factor that made us walk like for eternity...
nvm, i shall think positive and take it as excerise!!! gd for health...
oh yah.. drama performance finally over!!!
got so many performances then sumore on exams oni got a few hours to study before the exam the next day...
so bz.. hope can improve...

the esplanade was much scarier compared to the singapore conference hall lor.. quite use to victoria theatre liao ...
the esplanade so big and sumore i was the first one to go lor ...

aiyah in all i veryconfused now hahahaha..nvm can go crazy for all i want now... MAD!!!

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sorry but i was rather mad..
but no need to go to Mad People's Hospital yet muhahahahahaha
so long farewell...

hihi.. another human day....now i at ducky's home... a sch day today...
i wonder y do i keep forgettin my password....
sighz... bad luck lor
so worried for exams...haven started revisin yet... one week away oni lor...
but got hw to do... blahblah...

still got home econs to do...all that sewin...
the prob with sewing is that i always poke myself with the needle...
the two girls in my class who came from China is so gd at sewin lor... contrasting with my clumsiness haha...

well all i need is some complaining...
today i ignored my alarm so i continued sleepin but pig came pouncing on me and started ticklin me till i woke up.. bad boy...

sighz... so i went to sch sleeply...

today in sch, i hardly had any 'real' lessons to dae so we were left to do our work most of the time...
i manage to do some....
i was lucky to be able to sneak food up to eat during recess so i did my hw at the same time.
then after sch i went to ducky house and eat lunch and playing with the computer. buhbye...
gtg now...6 plus... liao
dun miss me...

saturday... hihihi.. miss me??? well u c todae woke up early...9am... haha u may think its late but to me it is rather early liao... juz to do my homework lor...sighz...
lets c...breakfast ...er pardon me for i forgetting wad i ate for breakfast .. will u forgive me???? hahaha (LEARN FROM DUCKY ONE)
ok lar i atefinish liao then i went to do hw...
since me sis blast the tv... in blast the radio in the room
funny i get distracted by the tv but not much of the radio...

i do hw until abt noon and go drama liao...
i rmb that we had to try on the costumes....
horrified! actually... it is ok lar.. no likes or dislikes...
back home ...face the realities of doing homework and revising for exams although i haven started revisin...

was doing my hw after dinner

wad a boring day ...
hw hw all the way

i do until fall asleep ...but pig decided to be mean to me... pounced on me...
so in the end i fought we him haha
then i woke from my sleep liao start hw again...
then this time i fell asleep for gd...
gdnite.